1969

I dislike people who pretend like they have the answers to life, especially when they're my age.
This is my design.

Ovary Stripe By: Kasabian

Srry but I have a thing for Josh Meyers (Seth Meyer's brother). Thnk the lawd for MadTv. (Josh is on the left, Seth is on the right)

I don't know how long I will name my Post titles after Stooges songs haha

1970

All I can do is be me, whoever that is
-Bob Dylan

I'm becoming too philosophical.....I quite like it. I really like the commercial where Christopher Walken wears socks on his hands. And I think I'm in love a bit. I've been in love a bit before, it was weird, I really liked it. Kesha did a tribute to Bob Dylan so I felt like the world was okay for a bit. I know it's not. I really hate Dancing With The Stars, like a lot. I cant wait for school to end so I can catch up on TV and watch the list of films I have to watch, I'm trying to live up to my name (a film buff). Reading books helps too. I cant write stories if I don't read them. I have a bump on my back but I'm not sure what is it...I cant see it. I like tall, hairy guys...I feel the same about dogs.

Here's some pictures of a tall hairy man I admire a lot.

His name is Lee Pace and he's a fantastic actor.

Who else watched Pushing Daisies?

(These are all from his Twitter)

For your listening pleasure:
1970 By:The Stooges

I'm Bored

<3

For your watching pleasure:
A rock star

Wanna be startin somethin

I went to a pretty conservative baptist church with my religion class and I brought up the question/statement to the pastor:

The bible has been used misused justify atrocities (ex: slavery) and the oppression of many people, and the bible is being used for the oppression of gay people now, do you see a connection between the use of the bible incorrectly to oppress?

I got the answer: The bible doesn't say slavery was right and using to justify it was wrong but gay rights is different and it is specified in the bible that it is wrong. (But in a very long winded and annoying way.) And that version of slavery is not applicable to what it became (this complicated huge thing).

I asked: Then how is the union of Adam and Eve (which was not specified as marriage) applicable to what his opinion of what marriage should be today? How was what people said about same-sex sexual relations applicable to the love they share for each other now? How do you choose what is applicable to society now? People chose what was applicable and then it changed (ex: now slavery is seen as wrong by most) so how is this not one of those things? Oppression is oppression, it doesn't matter if your canon of belief says it's okay. Oppression is not justified by any biblical teaching, I'm not saying not agreeing is oppression, I'm saying the fact that this complicated matter is simplified in a such a way that people believe they have a right to treat people badly (not serving them, calling their marriage invalid) for it is oppression. I know what oppression is.

I was told: But you don't live in the 1960s you don't face discrimination/oppression.
I'm black and I'm a woman, I face discrimination and a white male (I love me a white male, black male, any color male) telling me that I don't just because it is not extremely blatant to them is ignorant and (in my opinion) annoying. I have to deal with people's ignorance on who I am and what people who look like me do everyday and you are telling me I don't know what oppression is, what discrimination is. That is blatant ignorance.

I was asked by my sister later on today day: How are LGBTQIA people being oppressed?
The fact that they are killed, sent to jail, or ostracized by people who said they loved and cared about them is maltreatment and this being done in parts of government (and yes it is happening) is oppression.

No only do I abhor (and I mean abhor) people who oversimplify the lives and legitimate love of so many people to that it is just wrong, I also hate the way it is used to make LGBTQIA people feel. You can say that is what you believe (and I admire people who do) but that doesn't make it right (I know I must consider this also).

And I wondered how it would feel on his (the pastor) conscience if God turned out not to be real and he made so many people fearful and hate themselves, told so many people they were going to hell, and the fact that they feel correct in justifying the death of people who saw no other way out of this on something they cant even prove.

I agree with any statement of being disrespectful to him, I admire his heart about what he feels, but I don't admire the affect that his ignorance has on so many people's lives. Also I don't respect people who make people feel like crap, that's bullying, and justified by what? I know what it's like not to fit in or to be liked, or to feel so bad about yourself you wish you would just die, and people who try to justify making people feel like that don't have my sympathy.

(I a trying to get better with people who I disagree with but it's very hard, best believe I'm trying tho! And the more I speak out for what I believe in the way that I do, I realize how whiny people are about challenging figures that they follow without question. Idc if I offend you, grow a pair and hear what others think [and I have to do the same, but if you gonna say stupid crap please back it up with basic human decency and logic lol] xx)

But to combat this tone I shall have a picture of Jensen Ackles!

He's my bowlegged sweet-heart <3

For your listening pleasure:

Wanna Be Startin' Somethin' By: Michael Jackson

Asleep

My arm fell asleep, my foot fell asleep, my brain falls asleep sometimes. I want to go to sleep.

Love this pic

For your listening pleasure:

Blackout By:Tritonal ft: Steph Jones

(great song, ma jam)

In pain - a bit of a rant

Why do people who have been physically scarred see people who have been emotionally scarred as whiners. Why is my pain less important? You get stabbed, you heal, I get betrayed in a major way, I may not trust people for the rest of my life. And the fact that I have emotional pain is again dismissed because I am 17, why is my pain not valid? Why is what I feel not bad enough? Have you met someone who had lost a parent? Is there any part of you that thinks, "but it's not like your arm was cut off."? I don't think so. The way I have been treated affects how I act and think of myself today and probably for the rest of my life. Why is that not good enough? Emotional pain is just as bad if not worse than physical pain. But people who have emotional or mental problems have this stigma around them. Teens kill themselves because they feel so terrible about their lives or themselves, does someone have to die for people to realize the pain inside someone can ruin their lives? Sadly most of the time the answer is yes.  I'm sad, depressed, lonely, anxious because my experiences in life have had a strong effect on me, but I'm a teenager and I'm not actually hurt so it's not valid. But was I learn from realizing this is that only I can validate myself. But I'm growing up and I guess im learning so much about myself but I don't like being 17 so much, people think I'm a child because I'm not 18, or think i'm too old to not do certain things.


For your listening pleasure:
Invisible By: Hunter Hayes

I hope you dont mind

I feel admiration for people, a connection, no matter who they are, and if I get to know them, I might love them. I feel as if I fall in love the way characters in Oscar Wilde plays, books, poems do, fast and because of the beauty of the chance that they will be amazing. I don't know if it's love... Let me tell you what brought on this thought:

Today I was at lunch and one of my friends was talking about being a old soul, about feeling like other people our age just don't care about anything important and do what people expect them to, and I related so much to her on those thoughts. Shes different and has a beautiful way of thinking about the world, and I think I love that. I don't have a crush on her, I just adore her...this has happened before. I just momentarily fall in love with people. Girls or guys.

I feel like I love people...that the exterior isn't all that important. I just love people...I'm weird...

Matthew Daddario

(I have a weakness for dark hair and dark eyes :3, the guy I current have a crush on is the same lol)

 For your listening pleasure:
Beautiful Times By: Owl City ft.Lindsey Stirling

Passionate people and how we suffer

Me, I like to complain, it's always been a hobby of mine, that turns off a lot of people off but whatever it's true (Maybe I'll grow out of it). I feel as a person who loves somethings so much that no one else gives a crap about, at least in my high school. I find, people who write films, who make films, who star in them, make me want to keep doing what I love (writing films, or at least trying). They care about the things I care about, the writers and directors of those films usually more than the actors. And I wish, even though I have many talented people to learn from and admire, I am alone in loving what I love. And I feel people who have passions suffer, Everyone suffers of course, some more than others, but we creative types have a couple problems. I have heard that actors go into acting because of wanting attention, and that's why I wanted to be an actor also, I felt alone and the characters could keep me company. But alas I could not due to my severe stage fright. I do still adore acting though, but I tell you it is super hard haha (good acting at least). And I read Stanislavski and thought about my character's favorite vegetable, I have passion. I know I do. And even though I'm a bit of a mess at writing right now, I know I can succeed because I love it, I love films, I love stories. I know loving something is not a reason for anyone to take a chance on hiring you, or trusting you but I believe if you love something people will see that and hard work and passion don't not produce a reward. Of course I have a problem with wanting recognition because of the whole wanting attention thing, but I know I will grow out that at some point. I know I've grown because I was a baby and I'm almost an adult now, and I know I've grown in my passion because I used to be even crappier at writing. I'm still quite clueless about life though, I ask old people how they feel about that and they are still quite confused also haha. I love it, when I saw "The Hateful Eight" I felt like a had a crush haha, I adore films, too much.

My thoughts while I picked out classes for next year lolololol

For your listening pleasure:
Mind By: Skrillex & Diplo Ft. Kai

Typing

Hello Hello.

I'm sitting, looking at my computer, and wondering what to do. No necessarily to do physically, I know I should do my homework or the dishes or something less important in the grand scheme. But my mind is preoccupied and empty all at once. I don't know what is happening. But I was just thinking of a documentary I saw that Stephen Fry made about Manic Depression. I do not suffer from manic depression but sometimes I feel as if I enjoy intense emotion, a lot. I love Romantic poetry and writing, emotional subjects, sad stories. Maybe I'm just weird that way.  I suffer from anxiety, not as much lately because of the meds I am on, but I don't know. There's a lot of I don't knows in my life. It's complicated.

David Tennant - Used to be Doctor Who and he does Shakespeare plays a lot and I think Shakespeare is beautiful af

For your listening pleasure:
Adventure of a Lifetime By: Coldplay
(I'm actually listening to "Army of One" By: Coldplay but that song was easier to find online)